Endurance is Life

a hot evening, September skies
Ask almost any endurance enthusiast to tell you a ride story and you’ll probably be met with a broad grin and a tale that could contain completions, placings, goals met–or things going completely sideways–or both! Whatever the finishing result the story probably also contains excitement, joy, fear, frustration, pain, exhaustion; basically it’s safe to assume you’ll run through most of the gamut of human emotions out on the AERC trail. Whether you are riding your first LD, a long awaited 50, a bucket list 100, the mental and physical journey will be there. There are undoubtedly levels of difficulty and necessary preparation within those distances that must be acknowledged and respected. At the end of the day though, every person that crosses a start line at one of our beloved endurance rides has started somewhere, paid their dues in some form, packed their everything, kitchen sink, AND hopes into their rig, and if they’re lucky, set out down the endurance trail on ride morning on a good friend with a dream in their heart.
Oh the places it takes us! Nevada Derby 50 2014
Photo credit Baylor/Gore
My passion for endurance began in 2001 when the previous owner of my first horse told me that she went camping, rode all day, and then got fed hot food and maybe did it again the next day–and it was a *organized thing that people did.* As a horse crazy 13 year old girl, nothing could sound more delightful, and without hesitation my rangy buckskin Appendix mare and I in our free postage stamp English jumping saddle and cheap local tack store leather bridle joined the awesome elderly ladies on their biothane-clad Arabians on weekend training rides. Previous to my owning her my mare had failed an AERC ride attempt or two due to being wickedly high strung and incapable of pulsing down if the day didn’t go her way, but she and I were birds of a feather and we beebopped our way through our first LD in fall of 2002. By beebopped I mean the riders all passed a spot in the trail where nearly all the horses spooked violently including mine and my sponsor’s. My sponsor was thrown and got a nasty concussion, but our horses stayed with us, she mounted back up, and we made it slowly to the halfway vet check. People were immediately networking on my behalf and I was picked up by another kind rider and my now-concussed sponsor insisted that I go on. My angsty mare magically transferred her affections from sponsor horse to new sponsor horse, and away we went to a fine finish. It was completely thrilling and terrifying and while it was technically a limited distance ride, I have been calling myself an endurance rider ever since.
No ride photos from those early LDs but here’s my pretend endurance horse and I
 being pretend show people at the local county fair, circa 2002  😉
Of course, the journey won’t always be smooth, from mile to mile, or ride to ride. That’s the thing about endurance riding–it’s a highly concentrated mini roller coaster ride in life, while you’re busy living the roller coaster ride of the rest of your life. Hours and miles spent on the trail in concentration on a goal, getting to know your horse, breaking through on challenges presented and then not for a while, all strengthen, though sometimes the word seems more like toughen, your mental and physical hides. Perhaps most simply put, and in the colloquial meaning, it “builds character.”

my right ankle, fall 2009
not according to plan…builds character! 
Blaze and I @ Whiskeytown 2011
We were Overtime by max 10 min & didn’t get completion..
not according to plan…great ride though!
 photo credit Christie B’s Photography
To not turn this into a novel, let me summarize by saying that it was 10 years, a lot of lessons, and 220 LD miles before I rode my first 50 milers, on Desire, in March 2012 at Cuyama XP. 
Cuyama XP 2012
Photo credit Lynne Glazer

While only 2 years ago, that photo seems a lifetime (and definitely was 45 lbs!) ago. Every ride, every ride weekend, every month and year are so packed with opportunities to learn and grow and enjoy, if you can overcome and thrive against whatever life and endurance presents you with.
My ride season plans didn’t go at all according to plan this year, but at this point in endurance and life, I’m pretty much okay with that. Scrappy and I completed the first leg of the NASTR Triple Crown in April but then played with saddle fit all summer, which ultimately means that we spent a lot of time together figuring out nuances and filling in training and relationship holes, and I realized yesterday just how truly valuable all that time was.

We hit the trail early and my saddle set up, finally, felt perfect. I’ve been having finicky issues getting my Skito and Sensation treeless saddle just perfectly lined up together, as well as fretting over the inch or so of back and forward slide I get on steep up and downs, despite crupper and breast collar use. For once though I got everything just right and was not obsessing over tack for a moment or two. Unfortunately the air at the lake was smoky from wildfires both north and south of us, the worst air quality all summer, so my original mileage plan was immediately tossed out the window. Ah well, as you’ll find in endurance, that’ll happen.

pensive Scrappy..not so rolly polly these days..
smoky trails..time to go home

Despite less than ideal conditions, Scrappy and I were so clearly in tune with each other that we cruised a few miles at a sedate pace, including passing the trailer and adding another mile or two walk solely because Scrappy attempted Snarkitude regarding Being Done and Going to the Trailer NOW. On the way back he bobbed his head at his foot once so I gave him a “Woah” to give him an opportunity to scratch, and he immediately halted on a downhill and scratched his chin with a booted hind leg, with me perfectly balanced in the treeless on his back.  It was a moment of perfect balance (thank god!) and quite a nice change from the sudden halt and fling his head down without warning that our early days together entailed. When he’d taken care of his itch he moved smoothly on and a few minutes later the clouds shifted and I glanced over my shoulder and was captured by the light.

“HEY Scrappy, look at that!” I exclaimed and he immediately stopped, turn his head to where I looked, and I snapped this picture:

It was a hot, smoky, not according to plan ride, but it was maybe the best ride I’ve had all year. Of course, even as my flouted goal frustration cools and I embrace the relationship instead of the ride record I’ve built with my horse this summer, my little endurance demons have started dancing on my shoulders again, and I have a ride yet again in my sights. 
Just my first 100, no big deal. !!!
And so the life and endurance cycles continue.
look! Scrappy really is a grey! kinda…

Catching up with the Herd

It’s struggling to be fall here in the foothills of the Sacramento Valley. Trees are changing, leaves are falling, there is a cooler touch in the evening air against your skin. In the last few weeks summer coats shed, and in the last few days the horse’s bodies have one by one begun to assume that slightly fuzzy outline that suggests a winter coat growing in to hide the slick of summer. Paradoxically, the thermometer still reaches the mid to high 90s during the day, and I sweat, sip, slaver, seek shade, spray sunscreen, and repeat. I’m grateful for every day with my family and creatures in our beautiful home, but I am also so very very ready for the blessing of a cool fall and an appropriately wet winter.
while tractor work is done, Desire visits the filly pasture. Rather harmonious for a mare squad! 
Scrappy keeps an eye on the ladies, who as witnessed above, don’t return the interest..

 tractor work was *quite* exciting if you asked Scrap and mini Napoleon
Rushcreek Aurora, 13 months. Ever curious!
Sheza left her dinner right after this photo to come present her shoulder for scratches ❤
In wiener news, boys are easily pleased and little Kodiak knows that I haven’t handed over everything that’s in the Petco bag…
I’ve been toodling around the neighborhood on Scrappy in the Sensation treeless with Skito pad off and on lately and this morning I seized the opportunity to get a few more hilly miles in at the lake. Of course it was also the hottest day of the week (at least I hope it was..) and even though we got our workout in quite quickly for our turtle selves, it was just plain HOT when we got back to the trailer. Fortunately there are a few key water troughs out on the Lake Oroville trails and even when they have the *nerve* to re-cement them in a startling new fashion, Scrappy can be convinced to drink from them. 
It looks different, I KNOW IT

 Fine, I’ll drink, but my life force will be sucking backwards and my ears akimbo
 We flushed a fox, scattered some squirrels, and tiptoed past many a deer

 Scrappy wearily tanks up back at the trailer as I recline against my hubcap, slugging water and eating his carrots

I just chanced looking at the weekend forecast and am consoling myself that yes, today *was* the hottest day of the next 3..by one degree..signing off from dry, dusty, dreaming of autumn land.

Exemplary Fillies

Rushcreek Aurora, 13 months
I know, I know, the perfection won’t last. Growing pains and hormones and fillies being fillies, I’ll no doubt be back with some training/behavior issue posts soon. For now, I’ll merely fill your eyes with my clever, good looking Arabian fillies aged 3 and 1. They were both exemplary creatures today and I’ll admit it, I’m *proud* of the places I’ve come with both of these gals in our respective relationships. Sheza has been a wonderful test of my inner calm and patience since day one, and after almost 5 months with my junior Rushcreek I have a hunch that Rory’s bold bossy attitude is going to be a great stretching of the filly raising skills that I think I now have.
Rory’s getting more solid by the week! Quite a difference 5 months makes
step sisters, but the amicable kind
Rory putting herself away with Desire. 2nd time doing this routine, she’s a bit of a smarty pants
 Sheza had her briefest round pen session yet, executing everything I asked calmly and lining up for her gold star the first time around. I  decided to test that patience by giving her a thorough hoof trim; aside from a discussion on pulling her hinds away it was all groovy 


Thanks for the great morning, girls! 

Saddle Fit Conclusions

1) If you didn’t consider yourself a whiner before, you’ll be printing yourself an official badge by the end of your struggle

2) There is not necessarily an end to your struggle..the amorphous being that is your horse might just keep it interesting and keep changing shape FOREVER. See #1

3) If you ever thought that a horse care/use question had perhaps too many answers, too much misinformation is out there, and wouldn’t it be nice to just read one page that says This Is Truth, well, you’ve really arrived now. See #1

After months of obsess-change saddles-and repeat over the ever present dry spots behind Scrappy’s wither where he had shed out bald in spring, a couple of reliable sources just recently put a bug in my ear and then I happened upon reading ex Ortho-flex guy Len Brown’s site, essentially confirming what I’d been hearing. There’s quite an eyeful there for reading if you can look past the very questionable site design; it’s worth checking out at your leisure but here’s the particular nugget I’m referencing:


 Once skin is repeatedly damaged do not expect dry areas to immediately start sweating just because you removed the pressure at that spot.

Those dry spots on the withers may be permanent or not sweat for months after rectifying the initial saddling problems. AS I SAY ON MY WEBSITE: “BRING ALONG A CRYSTAL BALL IF YOU ARE INTO READING DRY SPOTS“. RECCOMMENDATION: Palpate your horse for soreness every time before [and after] you saddle up and forget chasing every dry spot.”

See #1.

Sheza Junior Steed!

Since Sheza came home at the end of June from 60 days training at Moore Horses, I’ve worked her all of 3 times at home, 30-40 minutes at a time, just in the round pen ending in a walking ride around the lower pasture. She and Rory are living quite peaceably together and have the entire west side of the property to themselves. Still, Sheza is always standing at her gate whinnying to me if she sees a halter (or anything) in my hand and when opportunity arose to set up having a friend meet me at the lake and ride Blaze as escort for Sheza’s first hometown trails adventure today, well, you know what I did! 
Sheza rocks Lake Oroville trails! 
The morning began auspiciously..ish, with uneventful grooming of both, loading of Blaze, and then Sheza trodding firmly on my left foot, the resulting throb of my toes effectively silencing the niggling worry about my somewhat irritated metal right ankle. No big deal, I calmly went to my trailer loading efforts (not revisited since she came home in June) and she was half loading herself in a minute or less, only then she decided she’d been a bit cooperative for a fresh green Arabian filly, and she tried the head up and rapid retreat trick. I didn’t relish a rope burn and hadn’t thought to wear gloves so the there went the lead rope and off trotted the filly in grand style until she trod on the lead rope,  startled herself, and stood sulkily with her head down until I retrieved her. We had a rather firm circle and discussion about not being pushy or rushy in hand, then back to the trailer we went and just the pressure of my husband standing “behind” her when she was waffling about behaving sent her stepping neatly in. I backed her out once more and had her load again for good measure, and fortunately she might be more serious about food than even her mother or Scrappy are; once her nose was in the manger it pretty well overwhelmed her desire to be jittery in the trailer.
On the short list of rude behaviors of the day, she tried to barge backwards out of the trailer at the trail head which of course didn’t fly; N was there to stand at her head and make her stand while I opened the back door and tail clip, then when she was standing she was allowed to back on out and take in this new place. She played tourist a little but once she and Blaze were tied and the hay bag came out that’s all she cared about. After our mini loading tantrum and considering I hadn’t done my usual round pen work with her, I figured we’d head for horse camp (on foot if necessary) which has a round pen, and I’d work the piss and vinegar out of her there if she seemed to need it. 
The genius of April’s work is that Sheza finds saddling relaxing, and going riding exciting, but with boundary tools present and usable. She stood like a rock for the fussing process of me tacking up two horses, sidled over to the picnic table bench so I could mount, and true to what I’d seen when first riding her up north with April, when worried her go-to move is to drop her head and eat. Sure, she startles but already she is figuring out that teleporting or even semi teleporting is *not* the way we deal with scary things. Instead, employ the 4 Acceptable Arabian S’s:
Startle
Stop
Stare
Snort
I’ll take that reaction out of any of my Arabians all day long, after riding my dear Sheza’s momma Desire, who honed her teleportation skills til the day she retired last summer. You all know my great love and appreciation for my girl D, and having bought her when she was 15 years old she certainly already was who she was,  but I have always been keen on her one and only foal being a) not suspicious of humans and b) not a teleporter. The 4 S’s it is, then!
Sheza’s only other transgression of the day was maybe 5 minutes into the ride when,  after stopping at a scary log to graze on it, we ended up hanging out grazing with a couple of my friends who were just heading out as well. That was all very peaceful and they were very congratulatory on my good looking clever filly, then clucked to their horses and turned to ride away. Sheza’s immediate reply to this was to go from grazing to OHMEGOTOO!!, illustrated with an attempted trot off, which when stymied turned into a brief front feet off the ground filly hissy, quickly stymied by turning her head right round into my knee.
OH. Fine then. She seemed to say, and went back to grazing. 
Aside from that, the rest is sunshine, rainbows, and proud parental gushing. She ate, she drank, she pooped, and by gawd, standing off trail, uphill, after cramming ourselves out of the way so other riders could pass, she stretched out and took a long lovely pee! She’s a flirty squirty like her mother and she did act a bit in heat this morning (she goes weak in the knees and slides her butt at me when she’s really in, *eyerooollll*) but that seemed a proper horse-who-needed to pee moment, too. I was kind of impressed at the balance of a 3 year old standing uphill and stretched to pee, as well. My goodness, the beast.
after investigation, deemed fit for consumption

 ❤

 faucets are not to be trusted, what they dispense is mostly acceptable 

Sheza took some turns leading for a minute or two, then would lose confidence and wait for Blaze to amble by. She was hilariously torn between being a bit too nervous to stick to leading and finding Blaze’s walk too mind numbingly slow to stay behind. I hear ya, kid! 

 My seat and lady bits were reminding me quite convincingly that I hadn’t ridden 5 miles in a treed saddle in a while, let alone an ungodly uncomfortable one like the cheapie Thorowgood I bought for a steal that seems to fit Sheza great. If my saddle fitting experiences have taught me anything it’s that she’ll probably outgrow the saddle soon–and this may be the first saddle that I cheerlead my horse to outgrow! Oh. My arse.

Not even tossing gravel could get Sheza’s head out of her feed bag after the ride. She is all business, especially if the business is Eating. Blaze merely wonders where his is, because clearly, he is starved. 😉

Loading Sheza to go home was nowhere near as dramatic as that morning’s attempt. She put her front feet in and out about 4 times and then she went all the way in and that was that! Showers and mash all around at home and I retrieved Rory from where I’d stashed her in Desire’s paddock successfully  for the day. Before long everyone was happy back in their places with an afternoon snack, including the human, who really couldn’t ask for more.

Assuming Your Way Into the Dirt

You can take the title of this post how you like; after all, it’s a fine enough life lesson that in general assuming things instead of feeling out or asking things can lead to an unimaginative and perhaps accelerated journey to your ultimate patch of dirt. You can also take it purely on the equine level on which it is also intended: assuming your horse already knows and is comfortable with things because XYZ  is a great way to eat some dirt, or very nearly.

Saturday was a great refresher lesson in all of the above for me. First, let’s lay out the facts and assumptions  present upon purchasing Scrappy last year. You may find that you share(d) some of these assumptions with me, regarding Scrappy or your own horse:

1) Scrappy is 8 and been under saddle at least 2-3 years, he’s had a lot of saddle and people work

2) Scrappy is a steady, nondramatic gelding by personality, he’s so sweet and perfect and can do no wrong!

3) Scrappy has finished 2 LDs, 2 50s, AND the VC100 already, he really knows his shit! 

4) Scrappy rode beautifully with a nice head set in a hackamore, he must have some training behind that, and we are going to jog quietly away in our hackamore forever!   

5) When I bought him, Scrappy was a little hesitant and inclined to take a step back when you first wanted to mount, he was also weirded out when I first started climbing up on things to mount him.I went about mounting in a quiet and encouraging way and his hesitation seemed to disappear over the last year. I have used mounting rocks/blocks multiple times each ride with the treeless saddle over the past few months. I kind of assumed I handled this mounting hesitation thing because he’s getting quieter about it on trail, moving on.

So there we have some basic facts and the resulting assumptions. If I’d been paying better attention I would have seen that this pattern of Scrappy overturning assumptions started the weekend after I bought him, when I took him to the 2013 Gold Country LD ride assuming a 100 mile horse trotted out for vets. No, no he didn’t, in fact he required hazing and I finished the LD and went home in shame and have been practicing ever since, with the result of 2 nice trot outs and 2 half assed ones–but no hazing–at our last endurance ride in April.

Here’s how we can look at these facts again, with a current timeline and minus the assumptions, and see how Scrappy pulled off what he has, but would still be completely wigged out by me going to mount in a new saddle in the round pen:

1) Scrappy is 9 and has been under saddle 3-4 years. He lived the first 5ish years in a big herd at Rushcreek Ranch with no human interaction beyond branding. Since he was brought home from Nebraska to CA he was “broke to ride” in some fashion, and then completed the 5 AERC rides with 3 different riders on him, with the 100 miler rider just meeting him the week of the ride. See #3.

2) Scrappy is a steady, nondramatic gelding by personality. I’m used to greenness being expressed by spooks and startles and a generally strong horse in hand, none of which Scrappy showed me, but he was also being himself in a scenario and sport he was already pretty comfortable in. Nothing more than that can be assumed. See #3.

3) Scrappy has now finished 5 LDs, 3 50s, and the VC100…which require Steady Moving, Eating, Drinking, Pooping, and Peeing–all things Scrappy naturally learned and excels at by being a horse raised on the range. The fact that he does those things well with a person on board and another grading him really exhibits nothing beyond the willingness to begrudgingly carry a human that far and tolerate another poking them.

4)The cessation of Scrappy riding with a nice head set in the hackamore was most notably on record at Nevada Derby in April, where my quiet fattie who had started back of the pack on a loose rein on an LD last fall was now a Hi Ho silver somewhat fitted up horse leaving camp with the hackamore cranked to his chest on a cold desert morning 50. This resulted in my first claim of “going back to basics,” when I realized that the hackamore was just a nice little thing that worked when he felt like it, but when he didn’t, having no lateral control and a hot horse in a hackamore was not okay. Putting a bit in his mouth resulted in apparrently clueless greenie bit chomping and giraffe necking, so in the last month I’d done a handful of round pen ground driving sessions working on giving to the bit, then rode him the 9 miles on trail the other day where I found him carrying himself and the bit rather nicely for not much work and a bunch of time off.

So, now we have a day where I throw a different (big, heavy, dangly stringed,creaky) western saddle on him and work him in the round pen. Operating with all the facts and assumptions listed previously, I then clipped the reins on and went to mount from the ground, resulting in this. 

I thought long and hard that night, and the next day, and for the hours that I worked Scrappy that next day. Why would my wonderfully trained quiet gelding suddenly lose his mind after a year when I’ve been trying all these different saddles right along and and and??!?!

My trainer April asked me a certain question in that 24 hour window that stuck.

** “How often have you truly pushed him outside his comfort zone?” **

Well I’ve–well…Hhmmm. How much of what I’ve done with Scrappy was anything outside of what his previous owner’s did in the approximately 3 years that they had him since he came off the “range.”  From what I can glean and remember, the only departures in what I’ve done from what Scrappy already knows is safe Scrappy land, have been the round pen sessions working on head set done in the last few weeks, where I wasn’t even riding, just working him from the ground.

Had I even ever mounted him in the Round Pen before??? I quizzed myself desperately with a tired brain made fuzzy from stress and surprise.

Don’t think so.

Have I ever ridden himbareback?

No.

Why not? You tool around ride camps bareback on Blaze.

Thinking on that long and hard, I pretty well found that subconsciously I wasn’t comfortable doing it. Yeah I’ll strap crap on his back and go try to finish a 50 with gear all over him, but the act of climbing on my “quiet little gelding” bareback in a halter wasn’t something that had shown up as safe to try in my little Risk Calculating brain. To be sure, I’ve gotten more cautious after shattering my ankle a few years back, but wandering around my property or a ride camp on my horse bareback has always been a *thing* for me, I even did it on Desire (eventually, and not at a ride camp). The simple realization that I wasn’t comfortable sliding up on Scrappy bareback and hadn’t at all in the year that I’d owned him pointed out the Holes to me more than anything else had, even his recent dramatic round pen reaction.

Holes in our relationship. Holes in the trust that you and a horse place in each other when venturing out for miles together. He has uncertainties and so do I. That head raising uncertainty about mounting thing that he did when I first bought him certainly factored into my unconscious hesitation to ride him bareback. While a year isn’t a long time in the overall span of things, it’s still longer than I would have liked to go not really knowing my horse. Scrappy was purchased to take over for my mare Desire who I battled to keep sound and ultimately retired last year. He arrived with my frustrations and stymied endurance dreams already placed on his shoulders, and after owning him for a week we were already at a ride doing an LD. Physically and baseline mentally, Scrappy could of course handle it, as could I. We finished, had fun, came home and told our tale. But right then and there I was just another random stranger who took him in hand and rode him some miles, without knowing him or looking farther than “we finished!” I struggle to avoid this meandering over into overly flowerly “the horsie has feelings too!” ground, and I certainly mean to place or imply no blame on his previous owners in all my ruminations. I merely and truly want a complete relationship with my endurance horse and what I see of Scrappy and my first year together is a bit of a jumble, obsessed with miles and saddle fit before I really knew what I had.

Lots of Holes, in need of filling.

In that vein, Scrappy and I went into the round pen the Sunday after the saddle melt down with nothing but a rope halter and lead. Having seen his extreme flight reaction to bunny hopping and basic greenie horse starting tricks in his saddle episode and with all of the above on my brain, I stripped it all down to basics.

First, stored up pizzazz, out. Once he was looking at me on the circle and quieting down, how did he feel about me bunny hopping 2″ off the ground? OMG BYE! said Scrappy, as he zoomed away around the round pen. Alrighty then. HopHopHopHopHopHopHop. I have an extremely tragic video from the session that I only showed my husband of me breathing like I’ve just won a 400 meter dash after all the hopping efforts it took for Srappy to decide hopping might be an acceptable human action.

Okay then, how’s this?Up on the round pen rails. (OMG BYE!) Down again. Up again. (Again? huh..) Down. Hop Around on the ground (OM–oh. Well..that). Climb the rails.

ugh weird human above me, toleratetoleratetolerate

 Down again. Onto the mounting block. Down from the mounting Block. Up and HOP on the mounting block (OMG BYE!). Down again. Onto the mounting block again. Repeat.

Once he thought standing and even hopping on the mounting block wasn’t the worse thing ever, it was all about asking for one step at a time, sidling up to me, for the eventual goal of an assisted bareback mount. If he got nervous and committed to not stepping up, he worked. Pretty quickly he understood that all that I wanted was one polite little step at a time, toward me up on the scary block. He started to get consistent with it, so off the mounting block and back up the round pen rails I went to test the One Step when I was looming above him. Less enthusiastic about me being above him but the One Step response is still there, and I could already see that he was gratefully accepting the use of the tool that I had provided him. He was uncertain about the whole situation, this new work in the round pen, me sitting there on the rails above him, but his go-to action was becoming One Step toward me when cued instead of balking and trying to get away/being driven to work. My goal to make myself and my odd requirements the happy, quiet places, seemed to be to be on track.

An hour or so after starting, swallowing fear frogs and with shaking legs (I do have PTSD about mounting at times), I finally slid onto his back. He raised his head a little but didn’t move. Everyone breathed, and after standing around for a good minute or two, I asked him to walk off. Of course at this point I only had his lead rope clipped to the chin halter loop, so I didn’t really have much steering. Trying to get him to flex to the right to tie my rope on the other side as “reins” demonstrated renewed stiffness to his right. When I got him Scrappy would flex to the left all day and not at all the right, but I worked on it and had gotten him flexing both sides quite nicely. Well, it doesn’t translate bareback apparently, so we did some circles around the pasture and round pen until he gave me his face to the right just a LITTLE and completely gave and went quiet. OH, that? Scrappy said, and gradually started flexing his neck around to the right more and more, til I could tie the rope on.

From there I repeated all of the above actions, but up in our *scary* driveway, in sight of all the other horses, with my mounting efforts done from a terrifying cooler sitting next to some horse eating muck boots. With renewed tension it was even more obvious that Scrappy accepted the tool of my One Step cue. In maybe 5 minutes, snorting softly and eyeballing everything, he came to the cooler’s side and stood for me to slide up on his back. From there we had a totally relaxed cruise all around the property, bareback in a halter. Scrappy was inquisitive, snacking as he marched to all corners of the fenced perimeters, not stopping at the fillies or his pasture gate as I thought he might. He seemed content, and interested, and I felt at home on his broad warm back.

‘sup, mini horse

Somewhere, in one or both of us, a hole was quietly filled in.