The Spaces in Between

It’s been a busy and hot last week or two and I’ve gotten next to nothing done with my herd beyond basic body and hoof care. Because that’s life. It’s not all exciting stories and leaps and bounds in progress, sometimes it’s just daily duties and how we fill the spaces in between.

I did manage a couple of +/- 20 minutes hands-on sessions with Apache during last week and managed to  get him back over to my buddy, W’s, last Friday, where he was introduced to another young horse guru whom he liked quite a lot. The wind was screaming that day and while Apache played uncertain with W, there was no firm frowny mouth or shuffle steps for S.  Happily, flanks/belly handling seemed barely an issue that day so seriously kind and loving *consistency* is the road for this fella still.

hey who’s this tall gal, I think I like her

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yeah buddy, no big deal

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Last week I finally got my lower leg tattoo worked on again, over a year later. Only a few hours left to finish up now!

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Other than that it’s been boot fittings, hoof trims, 100+ degree weather, endless wildfires, and admiration of growing creatures, pup and filly.

4 month old Jazzy watches as old Tady lab sleeps

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4 yr old Sheza snarky princess dwarfs grey momma D in  the left corner..

..but not so much 2 yr old Rory the Impervious!

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Holding on for cooler weather…

Herd Progress

It was a fun and busy last 10 days here at RHE. On the weekend my mom brought my nieces and nephew over for their annual summer visit, which always involves fishing at the river–and riding Blaze!

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2011 and 2015
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Aside from a number of outside boot fittings and a few trims, during the week I trimmed 3 of my herd, got both greenies seriously quality excursions, and had dinner with a friend I haven’t seen in a while. As a not very social person this was a rather full plate for me but the struggles and loss of those around me spur me ever onward to make the most of each available day. Mission complete, this week.

an evening ride on a solid Mustang after boot fittings

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moments of filly impatience

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some of my favorite faces, don’t miss dark bay Blaze ❤

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boarder Farley went home with Mel after escorting Sheza and I on trail

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sporting the wide tree Solstice I bought from my Tevis rider, I looove it

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food. always. especially when mentally done!

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loose rein walk back to the trailers and no hurry to catch up

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wait, where did my buddy go??!?
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Our Farley-escorted Sheza excursion went great. While we’ve been hiking, I hadn’t ridden her in months. I had her work the spazzies out in the arena before we left for the trail and she was a model citizen for our 3.5 mile cruise. She did get mentally tired and tried first her stop and eating anything, then a few trots I shut down, and finally a few snarls at Farley to see if that maybe got her something she wanted. If she wanted a swat on the neck then her wish was fulfilled, and onward we went, with a pretty polite solo trailer ride home for Sheza. She had a seeming bout of gas cramps when we got home, stopping in the middle of consuming her mostly-water mash  she looked suddenly pained, flattened her tail, and basically looked like someone who badly needed to fart. She walked herself in circles, stopped and looked pained, and repeat, for about 5 minutes before her brow suddenly cleared and she was and is normal ever since. It was rather alarming but interesting! Hopefully a fluke.

Apache’s west garden view

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W, a new friend and boot client, she of the heavenly shade and rig at Tevis’ Foresthill this year, has the kind of horse sense that is natural, undeniable, and inspiring. I knew that Apache and I were in a bit of a rut after I came off in July and fortunately she kindly agreed to work with Apache and I yesterday morning. I hadn’t loaded him since he came home but, being a clever fellow, it actually took me longer to catch my usual pocket pony than to load him. They know things, I tell you.

W took Apache in the round pen and at liberty just had him move around, not driving him or even choosing a direction, just moving his feet, to “see what he knows and let him know I am open to communication with him,” best said in her words.  You may get tired of hearing/seeing this word but Try is the word for Apache. He wants to be a human’s horse but he’s clearly had issues in the past, and you can see the literal physical effort he puts into standing still and participating in what the human wants, even when his breath comes in short huffs and his skin literally quivers at a touch. He stands. And tries. And learns. It’s really something.

What was really exciting was that W honed in on the likely key to the bucking right away–complete discomfort bordering on panic at his barrel/lower belly/man parts being touched (as my leg/the stirrup fender would have).  It made even more sense as I remembered when I long lined him after the bucking incident he was pretty squiggly at the lines running down his sides/flanks. This time his entire hind end flinched heavily and repeatedly at a touch or intended touch and you could hear him catch his breath while she was partially mounted (note, I run my hands and the rope all over when grooming and don’t get this reaction). As he was  a breeding stallion for a time, he’s very aware of what his bits are for and some of the desire to protect that area could be from from that, though his even more defensive reaction to human feet rubbing his legs or near that area suggests some trauma as well.

oo you found my unhappy spot, ooo human

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After some time going back to the ground and desensitizing his barrel area..

okay human, you haven’t done anything terrible and I kind of feel okay about this whole thing

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humans are totally weird but I kinda dig it
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Overall it was a very informative and exciting session, as W saw as much try and potential in Apache as I do, and she unlocked some great homework for me that will get us out of this rut and on our way to discovering the next bump in the road! Better together.

and then I woke up to cool rainy skies, ahh

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Bay Party

Quick update on things, and it turned out rather bay!

Blaze is looking & feeling good, ready to boss Apache through some ponying trail time

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Speaking of! Heel first, tongue out, shiny brat 🙂 

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unhaltered but didn’t think he was done. becoming my good buddy
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solo shake out ride for Sparky on Sunday (alliteration for the win!)

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 so maybe I was a little more excited than him..

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Can be led to water and made to drink..gotta love geldings

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A mash for Sparky and a Gold Country 50 miler entry for me!!

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boarder mare Farley has settled in

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Hope to see some of you at Gold Country this weekend!

Coming up:

Apache Trail Time

Sheza’s First ride Camp

Look for the Lesson

One of the best things about horses in my opinion is that the lessons they teach us transcend the animal or hobby. I suppose it must be possible to be around horses with no further emotional investment than “this is fun” or “a job done,” but personally I’m not capable. My own ongoing journey to being a calmer, better, and brighter human has been so irrevocably linked to my failures and successes with horses that the one is inextricable from the other.

11304040_10152785288102031_117548517_nThis isn’t the post to tell all the tales, but for example this: I didn’t used to like Arabians. My first experiences on horses were English riding lessons in Maine on a variety of breeds; my first favorite horse? An ornery chestnut Quarter Horse mare named Ruby. Another favorite was a Morgan gelding who’s ground manners were of the shove tiny me into a wall on his way for vittles type. My first personal horses, years later as a Californian, were a greyhound bodied and minded Appendix mare and a Welsh Pony/QH mare.

You can safely read into that that I didn’t shy away from sassy and smart horses by any means, I just didn’t see the appeal of Arabians at first. As a teenage trail guide at a riding barn on the north coast that also did endurance, I was around numbers of Arabians for the first time– and really? They seemed completely over the top. As a transplated strong willed redheaded youngster with East Coast roots, a somewhat self imposed desire to naturally understand and be good at things right away, a family instilled need to be efficient, and a natural born cowl of impatience, Arabians and I were just made to butt heads at that place in my life. In my world we didn’t *express* and we got shit done, period. Stopping, staring, snorting, spooking–emoting! Well what good is that. That’s not accomplishing anything.  Get on with it. IMPATIENCE! 

Between those years of guiding and buying my first Arabian, there was much Young Person Angst. You’ve been through it or you’re going through it, I don’t think I need to labor the details. The point comes around to being, I bought and bonded with my first Arabian, Blaze, in early 2009 at a raw and new place in life. I’d moved to a new county with a man I barely knew, my Welsh cross mare was freshly and harshly retired by a truck accident, I had no local friends, connections to family were more tenuous than they’d ever been, I could go on. My 2008 model first-ever personal chi-mutt Georgia was my friend, that I knew, and this short, trumpety, spooky, horse aggressive bay, Blaze, was going to be my friend too, by god.

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^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^I’m overpointing at this meme because it’s true, it’s so damn true. And horses will teach you this, over and over. They will give you the highest highs, the lowest lows, and if you’re lucky you’ll wake up every morning and get to decide how you are going to handle it all–not deal with, not cope with it, but *handle* it all. The years between Blaze coming home a snotty jerk and becoming the amazing little man he is today are all chronicled on this blog, feel free to browse back.

From Lds with Blaze to 2012s first 50s with Desire to her early retirement– to the *2 year* saga that has been endurance with Scrappy, I have absolutely been discouraged, kicked in the gut, and completely done. Then I got up the next morning, fed those ungrateful gorgeous four legged wretches, and carried on. The horses don’t know how much they cost, in dollars or dreams. Regardless of what emotions or expectations we project for them or inflict on them, the horse *is*. Initially, the sensitivity the Arabians showed to the world and to my own roiling emotions was what repelled me, but as I struggled and grew, it was their honesty that made and kept me honest, with them and myself. The more willing I was to look at my own behavior, in life and with my horses, the better all results became. The calmer, truer, and more open hearted I am, the better they respond, and the better we are together.

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So here we are. Scrappy is out to pasture for a year. I’m riding a nice, but borrowed horse. Things are not as I had imagined or planned, and that’s okay. The struggle isn’t over, all the obstacles are not yet seen or even imagined. I have no idea, in this moment, how I’ll handle them when I encounter them. But I know that I will, and I’ll learn something from it, and be better. I urge others not to grasp too tightly to labels and expectations or grand plans made. Yes, dream. Yes, make goals. But recognize and embrace a positive flexibility– often found rooted in an elusive acceptance of yourself–look for the lesson, and thrive.

Weekly Round Up

I’m happy to say that I’ve got some actual trail photos to include in this post! 
But first! I’ve been handling Apache, grooming, trimming his feet, just hanging out in his pasture since arrival but finally, after his much needed dental and an all clear from the chiropractor, Apache joined the work force! I started with a liberty round pen session and then I climbed all around on the fence and waved my legs and jumped up and down and just generally acted a fool. Apache is green broke but I’d rather start from scratch than trip over revealed holes. Fortunately I also have filly assistants. *amused eyeroll* 
Apache stretching out
willing but fairly convinced of my insanity

 The 11th was my birthday so on the Sunday before my husband and I got up early and took new guy Spark to the fishing hole/trail intersection and went our respective ways. Which meant we got a couple of photos 🙂

handsome Spark kitted out in the Specialized Trailmaster and Renegades
taller than I’m used to! 
solo Spark!
hiking back down the dam

 Birthday Noms!!   mmm Crepes
 my husband made me a German chocolate cake ❤

 Because the winds of fate are not kind even when people deserve it, a good friend doesn’t have a reliable horse to ride at the moment, so I hauled Spark and Blaze to the lake for a fun little group ride. It was a good different test for Spark and I’s new summer relationship and fun to see Blaze enjoyed by yet another dear person.

Blaze and D 🙂
Spark leading the group
Good boy Spark relaxed even though Blaze was at the other trailer

We lead, followed, leap frogged, waited, and rode through the local long scary tunnel, all of which Spark handled nicely. It’s very nice to be on trail despite how everything has shaken out. Grateful to friends and glad to pay it forward where I can!

Cache Creek 2015 and More

It’s been a rough couple of weeks.  Life was busy, more stuff than I care to mention going on, but worst, extended family suffered a devastating lost end of last week. I was in heavy compartmentalization mode on Friday, picking up sale gelding Shiner and heading for Cache Creek ride camp to check in on boot clients.
like jewels in the sun!
boot service and delivery via Blazer steed
Shiner was a good boy, handled mostly by my husband that day
Cache Creek is one of the most challenging rides around for strap on hoof boots, with the bog, water crossings, and hills, hills, hills. Sure enough all brands were challenged but I wasn’t there to see it.
Sunday I returned to CC ride camp with Scrappy. The next step in his journey is a year entirely off work and thanks to an old friend, he’ll be spending it on 17 scenic acres with Desire’s full brother and another dear Arab. 
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Said friend brought D’s bro and her handsome, Westergard bred 10 yr old bay gelding, Spark, and we rode a loop out of ride camp while my husband napped with Scrappy at the trailers.
Then Scrappy loaded up with D’s brother and Spark loaded up in my trailer and came home with my for 6 months or so of riding, future TBD. He’s a solid 15 hands at least and a really nice ride, I look forward to saddle time and maybe endurance rides this season after all!! Thanks C. 
Spark joins the bay crew
Apache & Spark were briefly roommates..

..but Apache has a Blaze ego, so he went back to his own quarters
Turns out Shiner and Spark are super buds! 
(Spark left, Shiner right)

 Shiner also had a shampoo & hoof spa
 Meanwhile, our big old shephard mix, JJ, took a sudden turn for the worse. The old fellow had bad hips and finally his kidneys started to go. He went to sleep peacefully with us surrounding him, and the pack sat vigil as we buried him under the oak tree out back.

It’s always hard to say goodbye to an old friend but it truly is not a dark thing. May we all live full, enjoyable lives and die at a proper age surrounded by those we love.

And because animals heal us and make us laugh as much as they challenge our hearts, I got home from work yesterday to find a casual Rory filly, chilling *outside* the pasture she occupies with 3 other horses and the mini, who were still very much inside.

‘Sup